Blunders of Life

            Twenty Two years has been passed by like sand in hand. Many things came and gone. Some stayed for a while and some just lost. All these days, a same old routine was followed and followed. When you  stop and just take a look back to those days, you might wonder what you had done.  Everyone wants to live those days. One common thing about those days is that you will find a good reason to laugh. Whether it's about bunking office without permission of boss or going out with four girl and treating all of them like girl friend at the same time!
        All those things were real blunders for me. Everyday I woke up and lived it like hell. Didn't know what to do! From where to start! Even why the hell I did this! All I did was just followed an unknown dark path with no future, no goal. It was like my childhood habit. I started bunking my school when I was three and half! Many time I was punished for that but I just said, "The more you stop me, the more I will do this!" Preparing for exams with friends at one of my friends home and just watching a boring bollywood movie all the time. And the most amazing thing was that I still managed to get  the best grades.
          This thing continued in high school too. No homework and yet I was the best pupil of my batch. For others I was innocent, sweet chocolate boy but inside I was "Mr. wicked one".  In my high school, I liked a girl. I think I still like her but she does even bother about my existence. Well, that's a different story. But funny think is that I never talked to her casually just fought with her all the year. Then I decided to choose science stream just for a change. In my whole family I was the only one who even thought to graduate in engineering. And I did took science. Appeared in national level competition examination. Actually I was not even knowing the venue of exam. Now, you can think how careless I was! And guess what?  I got good raking and offered Civil Engineering in national institute. Everything was just going good and I just refused the offer from institute and went to another institute to pursue degree in Electrical. That was the worst institute and just a very few were there like that one. I was knowing all this and still I chose that college to shape my career.
       As it was an old habit, my blunders continued in colleges. Behaved like each and every girl out there was my girl friend even when I was not knowing name of the few. I never took part in any electrical activity but went to another town just to take part in civil Tech-fest. I bunked lectures and starred female lecturers in class. I discussed Indian behaviour of teenagers and their view about sex with girl who was highly uncomfortable with word like "SEX"! Again after college appeared in national level exam to pursue Master degree in engineering. Again, I dumped my plan and this time I thought to go for MBA.
       I joined a local coaching institute and paid a "huge" sum of money without bargaining. Suddenly I got job offer from MNC with a good job role and location and I said no! Why? I didn't knew. I just did not want to join that company. I joined a new company which was setting up a small captive power plant. Now, can any one guess what my first job was? Assisting civil engineer who was just passed out from the very same college which I denied earlier. Since my first day of duty I am doing the same thing. Some times I feel like if I would have followed my family customs and opted statistics in high school, I would not e required to do all those stuffs which I proudly rejected in teenage life. But I would not have enjoyed my college life.
     And about my future, still it's hanging in dark as I don't know what will happen next........

The movie

Graduation time was the most confusing time for me. So many blunders and misunderstandings made it more and more funny. I was too young to be in college, just 17! And it was obvious for me to fall in love like any typical Bollywood movie. I had always wondered about those romantic characters of movie and wished if they could become real. I went to theatre for the first time when I was a kid, may just 6, or even younger! It loved it so much. And my passion for movie grew in graduation to a new extent, Here is one such blunder of my life.
I was in seventh semester of college. Out of more than 60 batch mates only 13 were girls. So I made some good friends in other branches of engineering. I was preparing for Entrance exam and was Little bit bored of those engineering subjects. I planned a movie with my friends. I asked Miss N, Miss Sri and Bhanu to join me and convinced Miss Shu to come too. Sunday was the booked for the show. Suddenly I thought to invite my coaching friend Miss Pu to join us for movie. Now before moving further more I think I must introduce all of them.
Pu was Electronics graduate and was seeking for admission in good college for M.Tech. She had a good look, average physic and  height. I didn't bother mush about her nature as I was not interested in her. I first met her in coaching centre and we became casual friends. We used to have a little chat about exam and casual things. Sometimes our discussion went out of normal track and we had a good conversation. My behaviour with girl was weird and I realised this with her. I never took her seriously but I could read her thoughts and I had a very Strong feeling that something else is going on in her heart. But still it was just a guess and I ignored this all the time. I was in love with someone else and that "misunderstanding" never let me think of her.
A girl with soft and gentle voice, innocence in face and a charm in looks, this was my explanation of her. She was 22 and I was just 20. But I had a good sense to understand her. Her actions, her thought, her movement, everything was a little different from other girls. And this was what I thought about all the girls I met at that time.
That morning I asked her to join us for movie and as expected she declined politely. So I insisted her to join us. She was not comfortable with other I thought. But like a good friend I told her that I would dump this good plan of movie if she did not join us. And finally she agreed to come. But I was not sure. I called her even after I reached the theatre. I went to coaching centre just to make sure that she would come. And She came....

Change

Life is so amazing that it can make you wonder where it will lead. An unpredictable flow of time with strangers all around you. You meet them and they meet you but nobody knows when you will meet again. May be today or tomorrow or even never! And we do not bother much about it unless we meet someone who is stranger but still familiar. You sometimes doubt your own memory and try to recall when you met that person. S/he will attract you and curiosity will lead you to make the move. This will remain for a while and then it will become casual. May be after some times you will never meet each other.
But between that time period, a lot would have been happened with you. You will be a new person. An evolution, that's what braniacs call it. Unknowingly we accept this change and act like we are enjoying this different life. Everything seems to be so happening like a dream and we keep on dreaming. I know change is good but not all "change". People say you have changed but they don't bother why and how. For them either it's good or bad. They may tell you what was wrong with you in past and what is wrong with you now. But they won't tell you what the consequences of that change. The very called "wrong" thing may be good for you. That's why never drop anything behind specially small stuffs. Instead of changing yourself try to evolve.
Keeping those all stuffs that really belongs you is also a part of evolution. Evolution never ask you to leave anything behind you but rather increase your span to capture everything that comes in your way. All those small things that make you smile, all those bad habits for what you might have been punished, all the funny things that made you laugh even in the darkest time of you life will keep you connected to the roots of your origin. Leaving them behind for a better future will not lead you to a new life but waste of your whole life.
Even people differentiate with their rejection. They keep a few things and leave other ones just to make room for new ones. That's okay for me. Can anyone tell me what to retain and what to leave behind? I guess no one can answer this or may be you only. You are one who have to decide what shall come with you and what shall not. Still you ask other for hint. You ask them to help you to take your decision in hope that they will guide you to something better.Or may be you want someone to blame if anything goes wrong. I won't argue more about it. But do we really realise what we have become and we were. Some may say that leaving in past is waste of time but is it really so then why do we think more about past? Leave it anyways.
As another year has gone I thought to recall some memories of my past and share them with everyone around me..........